Ode to Bruce

A dog is the only thing on earth that willl love you more than you love yourself ~ Josh Billings

 Dear Bruce,

I dont know how to begin this letter. I know it has been awhile since I probably held you in my arms. But the very first day I saw you is still fresh in my mind. It was funny we never got along at first and yet you have been a big part of my life. In a weird way, it always seemed to me that it was you who taught me to become a mother. And hence, I have treated you as my baby -my First baby. They say when you experience motherhood you become fragile, and indeed I felt this with you. And I will never forget that day you almost died in my arms, your life was so meaningful to me. That day will always tell me that I am never going to be prepared if you leave, it will surely break my heart. 

And now that you're gone, it brought great sadness that will take a very long time to erase. I recall those days that I have ignored you because of Thames but that special place for you in my heart has never changed. I thought it would but its still here. When I learned that you got sick again, I have entertained the thought that maybe you will be bidding goodbye anytime soon. But not once did it occur to me how much it will sadden me or if I will be able to let go.

I think when someone you love dies you will never be prepared for that day when it will come. You will always wish they will stay with you forever. I try to hold back my tears in my melancholy triggered by your loss but it is not easy. I thought that because I am here I wont be affected but I was wrong, and Im somehow wishing now I was near when you left. My heart is crushed in a way I can never begin to understand but this is it. Im wishing right now that Michelle will be able to overcome this grief she's experiencing right now. Its not easy to lose someone who is close to your heart.

Inspite of all this, I am grateful that you came into my life. I dont know how much I have affected your life but you're one heck of a dog. And for this, your memory will remain in my heart forever.

 

Breaking the Rules

Yesterday, I broke my own rule - No Specials on Weekdays Rule. Since I've decided to lose some weight I had to change my cooking habits as well. But its just  been so long since I've wanted to try this Puto recipe from PinoyCook.net. I did it and I was pleased  Thammee loves it. I also wanted to try my new silicone mini baking cups, they were fabulous with portion control *winks*. And I kept reminding my guilty self that it didn't have any egg yolks in them. :) Now what to do with the yolks?

It snowed...

 It truly is unpredictable.... snowing again..in April. This is not my kind of weather.

Could it be?

In my previous blog entry about my weight I mentioned that I will weighed myself again after a month. But I just couldn't help myself last weekend and decided to peek how much progress I've made for the week. My scale read : 143lbs. I was ecstatic and told Thammee about my achievement. But I was still in doubt of 2lb. drop, so I weighed myself again today. Unexpectedly, I guess I must have made clear progress since its 140 now. 

So I changed my weight loss ticker:

Right now I'm happy but doubtful and asking myself how I managed to lose 5lbs. in 1 week? I don't know if the Wii-kend helped me lose it and its the reason my shoulder is painful right now. I don't feel lighter but I feel hungry..hehehe! Well, at least I see an improvement for my sacrifices. But I am hoping that I will lose more flab than the weight since that has always been my issue.

Mi Mancherai

Mi Mancherai is how you say "I miss you" in Italy. And I learned this because of the foreign film "Il Postino" - The Postman. I would have never known how beautiful this film was if not for my friend - Kenny. He is my one-of-a-kind friend I have who feeds me with stuff about foreign culture. 

I always had this fascination for Italy, so when Kenny tells me of this beautiful Italian film I told him I should see it for myself. But his introduction was not about the film, it was about the poem "Tonight I can write the saddest lines - Pablo Neruda". And that started it all, since then I already have a beautiful imagery of what the film would be like.

It had been probably about 3 years since Kenny first mentioned the film to me.  But my intense interest for this film has never left me. So when I found out it was available in the library I was so happy that I will be able to get the chance to watch it. 

The movie never failed my expectation. It was wonderfully funny but moving at the same time. But few months ago prior to watching the film, I was already enjoying the motion picture soundtrack of the movie. It contained poems of Pablo Neruda that were read by famous Hollywood personalities such as Andy Garcia, Glenn Close, Madonna and Julia Roberts to mention a few. 

The movie plot is not that complex, but it is heart-warming. And ever more I am very fascinated with the language of Italy and the country itself. Its definitely on my wish list on the places I want to visit in the future. This movie made me fall in love with Italy.

here's the song of the movie:

Mi Mancherai (Album Version) - Josh Groban (Featuring Joshua Bell)

LYRICS with TRANSLATION